Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on January 10, 2012, at 22:00:50
I've called my doctor many times left messages that I am in misery. I have no idea whats going to come of this situation. I am a substance abuser with various problems that do not relate to addiction. Depression, anxiety, crying spells, I just WISHED I never got to where I am. Alot of the things I would tell you, but I feel there is no help or hope to even mention my situation.
I do at times think what death would help me. Of course I never act on any dark thoughts. Dark thoughts come and go and you have to know that they do pass.
Please don't be alarmed by any of my situations. I have many times in the past made b*llsh*t of my condition. I am sick of reading my posts from the past that had NO legitment reason to even post, its like I was just trying to get attnetion and now I'm in a REAL problem and I don't know how to get out of it.
DARS is coming along. It's a goverment agency so they take time to do things.
I just wished I could just wake up and realize all of this is bad dream. But its not. and that is the main Hell I have to live with. Anyways I am going to do the best in thinking of thoughts that are positive. I always think negative and I am naturally an ungrateful person. Not too bad..but I do wished I had more than the sh*t I am in right now. I appricate everyone who at least reads this.
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