Posted by ihatedrugs on November 13, 2011, at 2:22:12
In reply to Re: I'm losing all hope...so tired of fighting in vain » ihatedrugs, posted by floatingbridge on November 12, 2011, at 16:49:05
> I'm sorry Ihd. Have you had periods of remission or of an easing of symptoms?
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> I'm curiuos how you made it to 33 w/o treatment.I've had periods of remission, in fact, before I sought treatment my depression was episodic. It would come out of the blue last from 3 to 6 months and then go away. It manifested itself in a sort of pattern. It would begin in the Spring and would lift by Fall. I remember loving the Fall season and used to think it was because of the cooler weather until one day it dawned on me that I never felt depressed during those months.
I didn't seek treatment because I didn't want to accept this disease and since I had periods of remission, I would tell myself that it would be the last one. However, each subsequent episode was more intense and decided to seek help. I didn't suffer from anxiety only profound sadness accompanied by uncontrollable crying. I learned to supress the crying and became a master at making people think I was the jolliest person at any party. For the longest time the thought of any one finding out was unthinkable. I was so concerned about what others would think. Anyways, now I don't care as I'm older and hopefully wiser. The last 3 years have complicated matters as I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia/CFS although I would say is more CFS as I don't have much pain.
How have you been doing?
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