Posted by SLS on October 5, 2011, at 22:57:07
In reply to Re: Lyrica - social phobia » SLS, posted by Tepi on October 5, 2011, at 18:57:20
Hi Tepi.
You did a great job of describing your situation. I was struck by your candor and honesty for letting the community know your innermost thoughts and feelings. It will help people to give you more targeted feedback and suggestions.
I am going to take some time to think about how to respond to your post. In the meantime, perhaps you can provide some details as to your history of psychotherapy and how it has helped or hurt you.
You will be okay as long as you continue to be honest with yourself and others. There is hope for you. I think you can build a mind that will allow you to live a life with less pain and more joy. You have a great deal of intelligence that can be redirected to focus on tackling the challenges that exist in your world. This will not be easy work, but you are capable of positive and constructive thoughts and feelings.
You are not alone in having the type of problematic thoughts and feelings that you describe. I can remember having them myself in my younger years. You can learn new ways of thinking to replace the old ones. You need some guidance, though. You took a risk in sharing your experiences with others. You might also need to take risks in psychotherapy in order to effect healthy change.
How do you know that you are depressed? Do you think your condition rises to the level of Major Depressive Disorder?
How do you know that you have psychotic thoughts? Do they rise to the level of being schizoid?
Look at the Disorders section. Without attempting to diagnose yourself, take a look at how many psychobiological condition exist and what their symptoms are. I have my doubts that your schizoaffective disorder diagnosis is accurate. Do you think it is? Why?
- Scott
> > What condition are you treating? Can you describe what you experience as illness?> The PDoc that ha evaluated me with more calm says I suffer from a schizoaphective disorder . Others doctors just simply dont know. I suffered from depression and mild psychotic disorders which are control to a 50%
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> The worst of all is Social Phobia , terrible. My mind its always busy thinking how sick I am , so these are destrcutive thougths and Im thinking all the time to hurt myself
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> I Live in others people mind, Im so worried about what the could think about me so when Im in a group or even in front of only 1 person Im so scared thinking that they are thinking bad things about me.
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> My intelligence tells me that that isnt true but my heart and my feelings tells me the opposite so at the end I end up feeling so bad, terrible .
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> So basically Im alone and maybe I will die alone, I cant interact with nobody , not even with my parents , Im not in good mood and Im not prosocial. How to live in that way?
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> Example
> I saw this guy walking on the street (about six meters away), and he reminded me of someone I know as a friend . In these situations It always happend the same, I think , Don´t look at me! Is it him? I can´t look at him... Oh no he has seen me... Was it my "friend"? Sh*t, what if it was? Dammit, now I must go and talk to him and act nice.... Those kind of strange things would occur
Some see things as they are and ask why.
I dream of things that never were and ask why not.- George Bernard Shaw
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