Posted by B2chica on September 30, 2011, at 9:13:36
so i thought my meds were doing a little better. slowly getting back to the levels in my system.
last night i received a phone call that was a Very strong psychological stressor for me.
i'm still not sure how i'm dealing with it.
i'm slightly dissociative, high anxiety, lower mood.
But i think i'm finally better at noticing the difference between biological vs. psychological.i made appt with pdoc on monday. i'm not even sure there's anything he can do. but he'll listen to my MAJOR concerns regarding the phone call. and maybe help me find a way to deal with this news.
if anyone has hints of what helps with these typs of symptoms...maybe more gabapentin?******************************
i also went to a little lecture that my priest was giving last night. and there were several things he said that seemed to hit home for me (even though the topic was totally different).he was talking about some stresses and difficulties he was dealing with and talked to another priest and that person said "God did not put us here to take the easy way, it matters how we act/react now. We will have many difficulties in this life, and they are all important that we work through them. That we fight for what is right in all of them. You will have plenty of time to take it easy in the next life. this life is the work, the next is the relaxation."
that is not verbatim but its what i remember and pulled from it.
and he's right. There is a reason my past suicide attempts have not worked. I still have work to do and i need to finish it all.So to ALL of you that struggle. The struggle is terrible, but your perseverance is what will be rewarded. Keep going.
This also put into perspective that even though i struggle, i have available resources. a great pdoc. and two beautiful mostly healthy children. i still have a home (though sketchy on payments) we're still making it.
i guess just my 2c today
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