Posted by Babak on September 23, 2011, at 14:20:41
Hi
I have suffered from depression since I my teens (I am now 52).
I started on ADs(Prozac) when I got to 30 after a nervous break down.
I started taking pain killers as a way of dealing with headaches and other symptoms of Prozac. It got worse when I switched to Effexor which was more effective in dealing with my lack of drive but had more side effects.
Then I developed these bad stomach pain which were probably already symptoms of withdrawal. But they were so bad that I ended up on Morphine Sulphate which helped with my depression as well. By then I was hooked.
Anyway I have been on Methadone for the last three years now and I have tried so many times to reduce my dose but in the absence of another solution to my depression( anhedonia and lack of drive) I have had to increase it again.
I started at 50 at which dose my depression was a lot better but as I reduced it down to 15 my depression got worse and worse. I can't tell that I was in withdrawal because my symptoms were nothing like those of opiate withdrawal but I got progressively depressed, found it difficult to concentrate or enjoy anything and I became more and more reclusive and unsociable.
Obviously I am worried about developing more tolerant with higher doses and end up just as depressed but some people tell me that my psychological symptoms are to do with the fact that I am not taking enough Methadone and the is therapeutic dose is between 60 to 120ml.
I have no craving for heroin or any other drug.
So is there a chance that if I increase my intake to 60ml that my depression will stabilize for good until I can work and save up enough money to try this Dr. Waimsann method to come off the damn thing for good because I have tried going without it after cutting it down to 5ml but I started having psychotic thoughts and was convinced that I had to kill myself in order to be reborn again without depression. I ended up in hospital.
poster:Babak
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