Posted by Christ_empowered on September 22, 2011, at 22:25:56
In reply to Re: the 'feel' of Abilify » Christ_empowered, posted by floatingbridge on September 22, 2011, at 22:06:56
hello again. The people at the hospital never explained what kind of brain damage I had. I was mugged and hit on the head with a pipe (who the hell carries a pipe around with them, anwyay?) and then ended up in the mental hospital about 24 hours later. They did a brain scan while I was sedated (I kinda sorta almost woke up for part of it).
I woke up in a cold room with white walls, with some angry nurse looking at me. She told me I was "supposed to be a vegetable" and that I "probably had an IQ of 75." I didn't know what to say or do, I just started screaming and grunting. So bizarre.
Anyway, back to the present. The Abilify works for me the way any good antipsychotic/neuroleptic/major tranquilizer should: I calm the hell down and I can think straight. 30mgs was way too much, but this 15 business is feeling about right.
I take antioxidants in the hopes that they will prevent TD. Lots of taurine, vitamin E, so on and so forth. There's really not a whole lot else I can do.
Back to the brain damage. It strange, when I think about; its almost like the brain damage used to affect me, but now, with some meds on board, I'm OK. Maybe that's the idea behind "transcendent intelligence," I don't know. My therapist a couple years ago wrote in his notes about how I was "wide-eyed" and all but called me stupid in session a couple times. My last therapist, who is better educated and religious, told me I definitely "wasn't average" when it came to intelligence and that I should get an intellectually stimulating job. My, my, how times change.
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