Posted by g_g_g_unit on August 19, 2011, at 9:45:47
i was wondering if anyone could help provide a perspective on whether i'm being irrational.
i was referred to a new psychiatrist at the start of the year, after just about being ready to wipe my hands clean of the profession. anyway, he turned out to be a lovely, thoughtful guy - he's discerning, listens intently to what i have to say, yada yada.
he was also pretty flexible - prescribed dexamphetamine after the first consultation, asked me what i'd like to try as far as ADs go, etc.
but lately, i find when i complain about a problem (with the conviction that it's somehow a 'chemical' issue), he seems to put a psychological spin on it and then i get angry and feel like i'm being blamed for something not in my control. by way of an example: i complained i was feeling so apathetic on lexapro i could barely summon the effort to do things like walk up the road to the library, but that things were easier to do when someone else initiated them and took control (e.g. my mom inviting me to the mall), and he said i needed to question why i couldn't act as my own 'agent' .. whereas i thought most psychs would just see that as a side-effect of SSRIs.
today i was complaining about the constant torment i've been feeling over depersonalization symptoms (which have lasted over 2 years now), which i expected would prompt some discussion about medication, but he said i needed to expose myself to the feelings and realize that they're harmless ..
i'm really not trying to complain about him or paint him as incompetent, since he has been anything but. i'm just wondering if maybe steering me away from meds is a good thing, or if he's overly analytical (i am also seeing him for weekly psychotherapy). it's just that i complain when a psychiatrist's too med-happy, now i feel this guy isn't med-happy enough .. i donno what i want .. i just know that i've been leaving our sessions feeling really frustrated lately and i'm wondering if that frustration's valid or the product of unrealistic expectations.
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