Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on August 17, 2011, at 23:54:12
In reply to Re: Doctor Shopping, posted by emmanuel98 on August 17, 2011, at 18:00:04
If you could see where i've came maybe you could understand. I know I would abuse adderall again but .. it's like that movie Limitless. He finds the perfect substance and does wonders on it but when it runs out he has withdrawls that almost lead to death and he has to have it. But as time went on he eventually learned to use it in moderation. There are plenty of people out there who use or take drugs and have a legal script to them. In reguarding the stimulant that I need...It's very helpful and improves many aspects of my attention to where I can focus better and live a productive life.
You know the other day I was craving Ativan for anxiety and it got so bad I took clonodine and that didnt do anything like usally. And then I started craving alcohol. Now, alcohol makes me DEPRESSED. I mean the first couple minutes of it when its giving you some euphoria is ok but i hate it. I have many tears that I cry when I drink because it makes me so incredibly depressed. See I know many recovering addicts that see doctors and get meds no big deal. I think I need to not tell doctors of my addiction history because what ever they don't know won't hurt them. I just NEED to get a job and move out and my own doctor. If you can help me do that. You are a true friend.
Matt
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