Posted by uncouth on July 4, 2011, at 16:18:21
hi,
i'm not feeling to good today. last few days have been up and down but i don' thave anything positive to look forward to in my life, and everytime i log on the internet and read technology news i have to see one of my friends doing well, someone i know or used to work with starting a company, people just generally doing rock-star things. and i've been in a horrible state running on 4 years now with intermittant suicidality and intermittant wellness.i have a question. i read somewhere that some form of depression is typified by rejection sensitivity. i forgot and could research this myself but i'm wondering if anyone has any thoughts on the subject. seems like even the smallest things and forms of rejection really hurt me, for days afterwards. even if they are legit, like someone i was supposed to do something with got sick. but more often then not its real stuff, like texting with someone to set up tennis, then they don't respond and blow me off. it hurts, and i know it's partially because my depression has caused me to withdraw and be a sad sack at times, but god damnit even when I TRY i don't get anything out of it, and it's just more disappointment.
anyway. someone talk about rejection sensitivity. any drugs particularly good for that? i know Nardil is good for social anxiety, but not sure if that hits the same thing. i popped a few ibuprofen to see if that would help with the pain i'm feeling today.
i'm 15 days without a cigarette (using the patch) but god damnit i really want to smoke a whole pack right now, i can't even describe it. the cravings are worse now than they were when I originally quit!
and any tips on how I can somehow (cognitively or otherwise) deal with this feeling of worthlessness, envy, regret at my bad choices, and despair everytime i turn on my computer and read tech news?
holidays are the pits man.
over and out.
uncouth
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