Posted by floatingbridge on June 26, 2011, at 23:29:52
In reply to Re: After 3 day Im Off meds !!!, posted by tepi on June 26, 2011, at 22:35:09
tepi,
That is just what it is like. You seem to be more aware of your process than I ever was. Maybe that makes it even more difficult for you, I don't know. But I want to say I think you are really smart. I also do not believe your negative thoughts. I don't think of you that way at all.
I don't know why the thoughts get so loud. And I think the reasons are different for different people. In the middle of a conversation today with my husband, I had the thought, 'I don't really have any value as a human being.' My mind came to a complete halt, and I started to shut
down, breathing weird, pain in my stomach. It really hurt. But my husband couldn't really see it.That's what amazes me. People can barely ever see this. And he is smart, too. If I tell him, he kind of gets it. If I
can tell him, I begin to feel the panic go away a bit.Some people are really kind, I have found, tepi. A few will slow down to be with you. That might be what it takes. I don't know.
I am looking for a support group. I have no idea if one exists for me, but I am trying. I don't want to be stuck like this. There has to be a way.
* and whoever gazes at the stars will never again be quite alone...
c-ptsd & attendant health concerns
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