Posted by Solstice on May 31, 2011, at 20:37:23
In reply to Semi- Urgent. Please read, posted by rjlockhart04-08 on May 30, 2011, at 0:23:43
Matt -
I have some thoughts that might be in conflict with what you'd like to hear... in that my notion of something 'good to hear' might be different than your idea about what's good to hear.
I think it is courageous of you and a big plus for your recovery that you readily acknowlege that the trouble you're having getting the amphetimine prescription you want is because of your own amphetamine addiction history. I hear how angry you are that your psychiatrist refuses to prescribe amphetamines for you. It sounds like you want her to trust you. Trouble is, that addictions of any kind are extremely difficult to overcome and it would be irresponsible of her, as a physician, to prescribe amphetamines to an amphetamine addict. If she did, and you 'fell off the wagon' and did something harmful to yourself or others with them, then she might get in trouble since your addition is of record.
I doubt you will be able to get amphetamines from anyone. I'm not so sure it's the lack of amphetamines that is making you so miserable. It might be the intensity of your anger toward the doctor that's causing the biggest problem for you. It might help reduce those feelings if you ask the doctor if there is anything you can do to regain her trust where that she would prescribe amphetamines. If there is, then you will know what you have to do and can get started. If she says "no way - ever," then you can figure out how to just let it go.
I'm pretty sure that hating her and thinking of her as a villan is not going to get you anywhere. Next time you see her, I would discuss the whole issue with her. Tell her that you want to try wellbutrin, or strattera or whatever else that is not considered addictive, and if/when she says 'no,' find out exactly why. You've told us she won't let you take wellbutrin, but I would want to know why not? And why not Strattera? If you know why, then you can figure out what is in your way.
Solstice
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