Posted by alchemy on May 29, 2011, at 11:24:36
If meds do anything, they make my mood worse. ECT has been able to get me out of a few times when the meds have really screwed me up.
I am so hopeless. I've been much more depressed, but my thoughts are more about "would I ever dare do it". I've lived 25 years with it.
I am a little worse on my last trial and should do a few ECTs (they worked with 5-6). But I am so freaked out about the anesthesia, the whole process and the memory loss. I don't care about giving me a seizure. It is kind-of like a re-boot.
I know Transcranial Magnetic Therapy doesn't have a good success rate.
Thoughts? Desperate. Any success on TMS?
I know this board is mostly anti-ECT. But it brought me out of a black hole. But I am so freaked out/scared. I keedp thinking about lying on the table with the oxygen mask & the anesthesia going in me. I think the first few times I did it I wasn't as nervous because I was so bad. But now it is my only option to not continue living this way. I wish I could take a bunch of xanax before.
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