Posted by floatingbridge on May 26, 2011, at 2:27:23
That's today's question.
My pdoc says I don't seem depressed. Rather, I'm sitting on a resivouir (sp) of anger from dealing with cptsd & highly intelligent and challenging child. Yes, true, but what? I am now spun beyond spun
This is so left field. I am flabbergasted.
Here emsam gets me out of bed; this man is sodear and sooooo elliptical. I am stunned. I do not understand.
Yeah, I'm not depressed? Let's party. No wait, I'm a whack job then, right?
He is trying to tell me something, but what? I need my boxtop decoder ring for this.
I wrote a letter, point by point that I will read to him before he even starts next week
Presently, I am flabbergasted. He thinks out loud: maybe I need drugs, maybe I Don't, certainly going forward I do, all said on the same session.
I've decided to ask or find a dbt group.
He said he'd think of an ER med like a high dose xanax for me after chastising me for using 5mg Valium for sleep. I had told him and we both agreed in advance it wasn't optimal. Now he thinks my intractable insomnia is from armor thyroid and the t3 in it
Good lord. I rely on him. I tell him everything.
He even forgot my ptsd trigger at childbirth. Funny because I didn't connect the dots I'm that. He did. He identified it. How could he forget, then act like I googled it? I didn't.
I feel like I desperately need to hear what he has to say and also I feel accused of being a hypochondriac smarty pants. That really hurts My feelings. He's been my doc for three years. I thought he:d be pleased emsam got me out of
bed.I don't understand what He wants and what he thinks of me anymore.
Something had changed :(
* and whoever gazes at the stars will never again be quite alone...
c-ptsd & attendant health concerns
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