Posted by floatingbridge on April 20, 2011, at 16:46:14
In reply to Re: Prozac and Anafranil » SLS, posted by Phillipa on April 20, 2011, at 13:02:49
>So no pysch med failed me my body failed me like my Mothers did. She once said lose your health you have nothing. Those words have been in my head my whole life as told to me at age two.
Phillipa, I know we, at least I, see the world through our (my) lenses ground by experience. What you wrote above stands out to me because you have
written about this before. I recognize it, with my ptsd-type lenses as one of those places, ptsd and jargon aside, that remain painful. Mother/daughter stuff, you helping your mother during her
illness. I wish you had someone or something to remove that memory for you.Geez. I'm in tears. What sigi wrote about life. Yes, I'm only 51, but that's past the
middle, and right now it hurts to stand upright. So what is there to look forward to? But I am not done yet.Yes, the trees, the colors, and young people. Young people are beautiful.
There are probably many faiths that practice this element; in my silly take on Buddhism, there is the refuge one can take in the good within ones self and in others. A Buddhist 101 thought I find useful is that my desire to be happy and the existence of that desire, is the proof
of my essential goodness. But that's my issue.I really like you Phillipa. You know that. I would love you to have more comfort in life. Whatever that takes. And I think you were very brave to write down your
list of symptoms and discontents. I have and still do spend do much time hiding.For some reason, I don't know, evolution or something, pain is seen sometimes as shameful. Why? I don't know. For me it can be. When I look at others in pain, however, I don't see why anyone need be. Our culture deals with pain very clumsily.
Wish sigi could get that time machine up and running. Think we could fit my parents and their parents in, too? Would three generations do the trick? Oh. My son. Make that four generations.
Are you able to get out on your bike? Or is it stationary?
I was determined to excercise, eat healthy, be active all the time and it didn't work. I've done what I can do. I'm at retirement age now so no working or even standing on feet for more than a while as pain and don't take pain meds and don't want to I want my health back. Phillipa
*a rose by any name
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