Posted by B2chica on April 11, 2011, at 15:23:18
In reply to Re: Perphenazine, PLease help...freaking out » Zyprexa, posted by SLS on April 11, 2011, at 13:21:45
>>"No one is going to be given the responsibility to shove pills down your throat unless you are hospitalized involuntarily. I guess you have to want to get well bad enough to accept the idea that you need treatment."
(although that is one of my biggest fears)
but
this is the issue but i'm battling between whats real and whats in my mind.
i want to get well. but how is my question.
im not normally concerned with my little visual auditory stuff cuz its never really effected me. maybe for a few seconds or so but not bad. however the paranoia is getting pretty tough. but i feel that if i fix my anxiety then all will be better.
though i think i know in my heart of hearts i do infact need an AP.
so why is it so hard.
cuz i'm battling the war in my mind.
same reason i get to my dinner plate and cant even think about eating. not that i'm not hungry, its not that i want to loose weight but i have this fear. that i'm being told that i cant eat. not just yet. dont touch it. maybe have a drink of milk...BUT not too much.
its weird. and i think thats where in my logical mind i know i'm off. and need medication.
but then that feeling starts again those thoughts in my head.
creating the fear and anxiety.i KNOW i trust my pdoc more than anyone.
i KNOW he would do me no harm.
Thats why i'm going to do everything i can to take the perphenazine.
(if it ever comes in...still haven't heard from pharmacy).
buti do trust him.
i trust him more than my mind right now.Thank you Scott for helping me out. for talking to me.
i think sometimes i just need to talk things through to really figure out what i need to do.
to vent and let out all the crazy so that i can decipher through and make a right decision.your the best.
and thank you dear friend.
b2c.
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