Posted by Conundrum on January 17, 2011, at 16:28:50
In reply to Has anyone been told 'you research too much'?, posted by Cydnie on January 13, 2011, at 12:48:41
> My therapist told me today she thinks my side effects from my medications are all in my head and that if she read about every medication she was going to take, she would think "every ache and pain" was from her med. This was after she talked to my pdoc who told me I research everything (he never acted as though it was an insult, actually told me he never knew about a med until I told him about it, and now uses it with other patients). I went to the ER after a reaction to a medication where I was unable to walk, had an incredible amount of blood loss, was stuttering, had amnesia. The ER doc was looking to see if it was a brain aneurysm, and told my husband my eyes were dilated. I told my therapist I would have amazing body control if I could dilate my eyes, and fooled a team of ER docs. She told me she doesn't think she can do anything to help me anymore, and this is after losing my pdoc, and having suicidal thoughts over the holiday. I feel like I am losing everything every time I turn around. I can't seem to hang on to any helpful resource, like the universe is screaming, give up! I'm desperate, scared, and am losing everyone, and losing faith in everything, and am so alone. Why does it seem like when it can't get worse, we all know what happens then. I am revolving in a crisis, and I just want to get out. I hate where I am, I hate this. I feel nuts. I'm losing it. She acted like I was pathetic and had the tools to heal myself in my hands, just take the pristiq like he told you, stop acting like a victim! It made me go up and down like never before, but she thinks it's from reading too much? Now she won't treat me anymore, because I won't help myself? i thought I was trying to help myself by seeing a therapist, and a pdoc, and other things I sought out. But she gives up, like I'm a lost cause. I feel it.
Don't feel bad. My pdoc just gave up, well she just felt like she didn't know what to do since nothing had helped so she referred me to a treatment resistant depression clinic.
I also research a lot. I think the research has been somewhat helpful. It helped me find that low dose prozac that had helped for awhile. (actually hoping it will kick in again soon).
Also, I think it is important to be your own advocate. My research has helped me understand what kind of tweaks my brain responds to. For instance my brain seems to like 5 HT2C antagonism, but not SRI action so much. It seems to like the two of them together even more. However it doens't seem to like ritalin, adderall, or provigil. So it wouldn't make sense to try dextroamphetamine as my next med.Sometimes you have to ditch the research though. I never thought I would have responded well to pristiq, but I did like the drug in the beginning before it stopped working, but I also make a note of what chemicals that drug works on, and try to find something stronger or more balanced for the future.
Complaints: post-SSRI problems: anhedonia, memory and concentration problems, sexual anhedonia. )
Country:USA
Currently taking 2.5 mg prozac, Multi B vitamin
poster:Conundrum
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