Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on January 4, 2011, at 23:51:11
In reply to Re: I need some advice » rjlockhart04-08, posted by Maxime on January 4, 2011, at 23:23:56
Well, I can't say who exactly it is but this person watches me on facebook and just send mean messages saying im nothing, im a drug addict, that im an embarassment to their family. You know, some of that may be true but I can't help my difficulties, its like they try to find whats wrong and where my weaknessness are and then attack me and then other people things that didnt take place, or maybe exagerated, saying I stole things that I never knew existed. I took Adderall out of some of someone's house a long time ago, and that stuck with me, and they think now that I took all these other valuable items that I never knew where there, I got blamed and kicked around like some scapegoat. All I want really is to rest in peace, [no not die...] but I have a brother who is very successful in his work, he's on tv, and when I see his success, I look at what a failiure I am and how I never made it, or I ran away from him because I didnt know what to do. All of this, see he's so successful but everytime I think of him, I want to ... basically die because I know that I had a chance and a I blew it. I want to die alot of times when I think about my brother, me and him used to hang out every day and now look at me...im nothing. All I can do is what I can do, I can't change into the person I want or the person I admire which is my brother, he has the perfect lawfirm.
I can make a will do something but I just feel so helpless beccase I was taken off all the meds that worked and got put on sh*tty ones that don't do anything. I can't blame my doctor for doing this, its just what happened, he said you need to go rehab and from there life went down hill.
Really .... i don't want to be here, I really rather not be living but I have to live and i resent it.
That's all. Thanks for your post
01/04/2011
Matt
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