Posted by Maxime on December 20, 2010, at 18:49:03
In reply to Re: Sorry: stupid question for this group of (course), posted by SLS on December 20, 2010, at 5:51:55
> > My depression is so bad that my pdoc has requested that I contact him *every day* to give him an update.
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> What is it about your current mental state that worries your doctor?He is worried because when I am not at work, I now go into a trance state for several hours at night. I don't know how to describe than a trance. This is new for me (new for me lately, I once spent 4 months in that state). He is trying to figure out what triggers it so when I get home from work I send him an email about my day and what I am feeling at that exact moment. He also knows that my job have finished now until January and that I will get worse even depression wise.
I know it will sound strange, but the more depressed I get, the less thoughts of suicide I will have. I also become unable to plan a suicide attempt. He is not worried right now about suicide.
I am still in my PJs and I spent most of the day in bed because getting up was too much for me. I cried a lot. My body hurts more than usual today as well. I have no idea what I will be like tomorrow.
You brought up so many excellent and I would like to comment on them, but I can't right now. It's too much. It always intrigues me when you talk about having cognitive dulling yet you can write very eleborate and intelligent posts. I can only imagine what you could write if you didn't have the cognitive dulling. Are there parts of the day when your cognitive skills are better?
Maxime
As long as the world shall last there will be wrongs, and if no man objected and no man rebelled, those wrongs would last forever. ~Clarence Darrow~
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