Posted by Hombre on December 6, 2010, at 21:03:47
In reply to Re: Do antidepressants induce chronicity? » Hombre, posted by sigismund on December 6, 2010, at 14:43:16
> This is lovely
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> >and to honor my feelings. And also to ask forgiveness from those I've hurt, and to try to honor their feelings.I am really new to the emotional intelligence thing. I am the first to admit that I have always had problems with my emotions, and dealing with other people's emotions. For so long I took on other people's baggage and ignored my own needs. It's been a slow but steady road in terms of defining my boundaries, not letting people cross them, respecting other people's boundaries, and learning how to deal with conflict in a way that does not cause more harm. I'm still learning, obviously, and recent painful events have been an accelerated class on matters of the heart.
I do have religious convictions that guide me, but just using logic I can see that if nobody forgives anyone, we'll all just continue to poop on each other and no one wins. I am willing to sacrifice my idea of what I thought was true in order to free myself from this endless cycle of misery. I still have some things I need to forgive, and I know they will plague me until I do, but I also know that I might have to wait a bit before I am capable of this. So I don't beat myself up, and I try to own up to this and acknowledge this weakness, which according to my beliefs, can be overcome. It's knowing that the possibility is out there that keeps me hopeful, just as knowing that recovery was possible kept me going through med trial after med trial. To be honest, I did not actually believe that I could feel well, but I knew I could not presume to think that it was impossible. Again, I had to admit that maybe I didn't know everything, and that was my guarantee that things could get better. I just wasn't qualified to decide that I was permanently screwed up.
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