Posted by Enigma on November 23, 2010, at 7:34:30
In reply to Re: Need treatment resistant deppression pro in MA/NH » Enigma, posted by Phillipa on November 22, 2010, at 21:31:45
> Enigma you mention brain damage? In what form? From what? Physical abuse? When you mention your wife you mention "she's become the devil and my Mom" and acts the next day as if everthing is okay. What happened the night before. You many have mentioned I think you did bipolar II and now MDD. What caused the change in diagnosis. Not to be suggesting something I have no right to could you be psychotic now? What's happened during the block time as I see this thread was started in was it July? Lots of time has gone by. Well it could take all night to explain but I feel It could be necessary with the time lapse to fully understand. Would you be okay with that? Phillipa
I had a bookmark to this post, which is why I came back to it. I was cleaning out my bookmarks and my pc in general. I don't want to get into anything here. I can send you babble mail if you want.
Really quick, though... I believe, and this isn't new, I've believed/known this for many, many years, that my bipolar disorder was caused by trauma, not genetics. My "mother" and "father" physically abused me, but the mental abuse was far worse. For most of my mid-teen years, I fight with my mother (and father), yelling at the top of my lungs for so many different horrible things she did to me. It was a non-stop wall/door punching festival for at least 3-4 years. It tore me apart. I was a powder keg of anger, hate, and rage for years then, and following my "escape" from "hell house".
If I ever find the energy, I'll babblemail you later and explain the rest.Thanks for caring btw, no one else does, especially my PoS "wife"-creature. All she can think of is herself these days. It turns my stomach.
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