Re: does anyone not want to get better? » SLS

Posted by floatingbridge on November 6, 2010, at 0:43:19

In reply to Re: does anyone not want to get better? » floatingbridge, posted by SLS on November 5, 2010, at 6:20:11

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> I know it is hard, but I think you will feel better if you learn to define yourself by what you ARE rather than by what you DO - or fail to do.
You know this is hard. Has it been an obstacle for you to overcome? To define myself by what I am-- a human being-- is so difficult (as you say) because I feel so poorly about myself. Somehow I am in a special category of being extraordinarily unworthy. I see the irony--of wanting to be special, even if it means horrible. And yes, because, in large part by early circumstance, my worth was defined and paid to me by what I did.
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> I know you feel beaten. Chronic major depression (if that is what you have) will make you feel that way, whether you are truly beaten or not. Perceptions in depression are skewed towards the negative without having recognition of the positive. I believe you have some insight into this, as you used the word,"feel" rather than "are" beaten". Just know that your energies are going to wax and wane, and that you will again
have the psychic energies and drive to fight again.
Thank you very much, Scott. The waxing and waning. Today I saw my pdoc after a month. I could tell he was glad to see me. Maybe projection, but I prefer to believe otherwise. Between digesting the different PB posts and seeing him, I do feel I have more strength today than yesterday.

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> Sometimes, "giving in" to the depression is to discover acceptance of its power. You can then accept yourself,
despite your frustration and demoralization at not being able to achieve those things that you expect and
demand of yourself.
I think I understand this. It is, well, for
me, an extended process. Now that I see it written out as you have, I realize I have been moving towards this.

> Despite your present feelings of defeat
and weariness, the energy to fight will eventually reappear. It is a part of your character that you will seize upon this energy and use it to survive and perhaps
even enhance the quality of your life. In the meantime, be merciful with yourself.
Thank you so much for extending your faith to me.
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C-PTSD currently set to twitch. MDD and comorbid health issues. Chronic fatigue and pain.

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