Posted by g_g_g_unit on October 21, 2010, at 2:52:11
So I've been seeing this GP who strongly advocates ADD recognition, and who I advised that I experiment with the left-over dexedrine I had over this past week.
"Awakening" wouldn't really be too strong a word to describe my experience (as with all stimulants) - I rapidly transform from a motivationless, foggy, intellectually wanting patient into a bright, dynamic, high-functioning individual. I've struggled to finish a single book over the past year and a half, yet am able to bound through and process information on stimulants to a degree I've never experienced before. Despite being academically gifted, I've never been able to read for longer than 45 minutes at a time, but can read for two hours+ with ease on stimulants.
So I tell my psychiatrist this today, and her response is that "stimulants improve everyone's intelligence .. that's why they're abused in America". She then writes me a script for abilify and says that that should help fix my concentration problems.
I smiled, nodded politely and left, and then came home and felt like putting my fist through the wall.
Is that an extreme reaction? It seems like every step I take forwards, I'm being forced back three. Every door I open leads to a brick wall.
Do I try the abilify? I'm wound up and unable to sleep on the clomipramine, so is it just gonna make things worse? I don't wanna take it out of spite, but I know that's an immature stance.
I'm seeing the ADD guy again tomorrow because he's looking at arranging a referral treatment for me. I think that if the next psychiatrist I meet doesn't wanna listen to me, then I give up. After 8+ psychiatrists, I have not met a single one who offers me more than lip service, who seems to care about the wellbeing of me as a person, who will listen, pay attention, or exhibit anything resembling a soul.
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