Posted by Maxime on October 15, 2010, at 18:42:54
In reply to Was I stupid? Am I still?, posted by Christ_empowered on October 12, 2010, at 23:04:14
I understand how you feel. I first tried antidepressants in 1995, benzos the same year. I had almost finished writing my Master's thesis when I started them. I.E. I started in May and finished my thesis in September. My convocation was in November and by then I lost my mind and I was admitted in the hospital. That's how it all began with antidepressant. I had been ill for a long time but never went to see anyone about it because I thought I was going crazy.
I could never do what I did at that time!I doing reseach and teaching at the same time and doing both very well. Today, I am unable to write an article. My mind won't that way anymore. I wonder what I would be like if I never started taking meds? Right now I feel STUPID and some days like I am losing my mind when I experience depersonalisation.
But just because we feel a certain way, it doesn't mean that we are that way. Other people still see me as being smart. Although I must admit that it makes me feel like am I pulling the wool over their eyes.
I hope you feel better once you get the Lamictal out of your system. Take care. *hugs*
Bipolar Type 2, ED-NOS, Self-hatred
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Being happy doesn´t mean the pain is gone. you just bury it deeper.
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