Posted by Buckeye Fan on October 14, 2010, at 11:39:57
In reply to Re: Advice needed » Buckeye Fan, posted by Phillipa on October 14, 2010, at 11:04:03
> How frustrating this must be for you. Long hours at a job can drain you, cause anxiety with deadlines, and then lead to depression. No idea what type of job really doesn't matter.
So true Phillipa...I really underestimated the stress of returning to a job I had previously been able to do while on both Zoloft and xanax.
Trying to put in the same hours and deal with the stress without these meds was impossible for me.
I also had no idea it would lead to such debilitating depression.
And to complicate matters...I am now wondering if long-term permenant damage has been done to my system. I just cannot seem to stay focused...retain information...or execute and multitask as I once could. I get overwhelmed easily...and experience a mid level anxiety throughout the day..even when there are no anxiety provoking things happening!But I guess it's good you have been off ad's for so long as might have to try one for a short period to get back on track. Also since you are ad free have you thought of first trying ST Johns Wort or something like Sam-e? I guess you need an evaluation from a pdoc did you see one when on ad's and could you see the same one as he would know how you were when he last saw you. I'm betting with that long off ad's that one would work again for you.
With the damage I believe has been done by the years on meds...I really do not want to return to that cycle again.
On the other hand...THIS is certainly no way to live.
So I am stuck right now...indecisive as usual.
As for the trazadone and librium. I'd see a pdoc first. That's just my opinion of course. What was you prior diagnosis?My diagnosis was anxiety.
In hindsight...I realize now that I did have a couple of bouts of severe depression in my late teens and early twenties. I never sought treatment..and things eventually got better on their own.
That was decades ago however....and a hint that I would struggle with anxiety and panic attacks later on, I just didnt realize it at the time.Now with age and 10 years of being on anti anxiety meds...I am no longer the same "me" as I previously existed.
I know none of us are...that everyone changes as we age, but I fear a more fundemental change has occurred with the Meds...and now I dont know how to get back to being able to function drug-free.
Geez losing a job and the fear of losing on is very stressful in itself. Phillipa
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