Posted by Enigma on October 10, 2010, at 16:34:23
In reply to Re: Nardil side effects ever go away?? » Phillipa, posted by Maxime on October 8, 2010, at 21:18:56
> > Enigma you mention office so you are still functioning and able to work so There is hope and new meds come out each day. Phillipa
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> Each day? Reality check! There has not been a new med in a while. And didn't someone post that nothing is coming down the pipeline any time soon in the way of psych meds?Yeah, I figured that, or the doc I just saw might have mentioned something, then again, maybe not. He seemed convinced that he couldn't help me before I stepped into his office, making me wait a month and 1/2 for the appt, and he probably knew that back then. Thanks doc!
Sadly, he mentioned some anti-mania drugs I have not tried, but didn't want to change anything right now. Why the HELL did I go see him then? When WOULD be a good time to change something? I told him Selegeline wasn't doing anything. Not even 1% (like I could even feel that).
I don't want to die. I want this bombardment of pain to stop. Emotional pain. There's NO escape from it. It's constant. I don't even get a break from it. Even my dreams are "disturbing", and used to be like a vacation from my depression, and now they "suck" too.
It's sad, I went on a depression chat channel and there were most 20-something's on there. Some of them said they wanted to commit suicide. It's not for me to decide each person's threshold to emotional pain, but OMG, these people want to die because of a bad breakup, and other such things. Yeah, I don't care if I sound like a jerk. They want to DIE over that? Imagine if they had 1/100th of the life I had? at 21? Damn.. go get a new girlfriend and get over it. Christ. At least you haven't lost your career, friends, wife, youth, all your interests, the only soul-mate you ever found, and about 100 other things I could list. Unreal. No wonder why "normal" people call us "weak".
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