Posted by 10derHeart on August 2, 2010, at 17:53:44
In reply to Re: Weight loss meds » Maxime, posted by ed_uk2010 on August 2, 2010, at 16:07:25
what a wonderful post, ed. You are thoughtful , intelligent, and caring yourself - clearly.
Maxime, I agree with all ed said. You know I have long appreciated you here. I have prayed for you numerous times when things were so dark for you. I worry about you when you disappear. You always take interest in others even while feeling like absolute crap yourself. That takes some inner grit. You have survived so much for so long. Strangely, though no one would wish anorexia, depression, etc., on themselves on anyone, the very suffering the soldiering on has probably made you tougher and tougher. Don't know how to make a point here, but I know I am trying awkwardly to say I admire you.
But, of course, we'd rather see you thrive, not just survive. I hope there is some alternative, some support gropup, a buddy suystem, something safe, medically sound and healthy you could do while waiting for space in the program you mentioned, to have daily - even hourly - support for your eating. I would never be so wrongheaded as to say, "I know what it's like," or ,"I understand what you are going through." No - not unless I either had been anorexic myself, or at least had someone very close to me go through it. But I will say, being very overweight and pretty much a slave to food, and coping with the frustration of all the da*n meanings behind overeating (comfort, stress, emotional eating, control issues...you know the drill) I think I do 'get it' slightly. And it's hell and it's hard and it seems impossible to change, but it is NOT. It can't be. People have. You (we) are people, too. Who says we can't triumph? Maybe we're just the slower learners...
You will find some answers.
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