Posted by alchemy on July 9, 2010, at 21:14:26
In reply to Re: Need help for treatment resistant ideas, posted by bleauberry on July 9, 2010, at 17:47:33
Ya, changing my meds is scary because I have had so many experiences with them really screwing me up & making me worse (2 were serious enough for ect)
I am able to work, but it is hard. Sometimes I can socialize and sometimes I would rather be in a blanket in the corner. It's hard to say exactly what my symptoms are because they vary so much. I have tried to keep track, and there is no pattern. This week I can "feel" my depressed head. No motivation. Most often being in a state of wanting to do something but not wanting to - does that make sense? Lonely anxiety even though I have friends. But most days I think I can try to learn to live with it, and somedays I wonder if I ever will really do "it".
Years ago I had more of the agitated/mixed depression. That is one thing that I think my meds must be doing. So that is what leads to a bipolar II dx. But definitely no mania.
I feel like I probably need an ssri because they have helped somewhat in the past (even though they may have induced the cycling thing). Plus the pms, and I think it helps with my intestines.
As I look back at my notes, I don't think the increases I've tried with at least the Celexa & Wellbutrin have helped so I might go down.Why can some meds make me fall so far, but none move me up? I think my brain must have a negative threshold that is not going to break.
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