Posted by manic666 on May 31, 2010, at 4:18:51
In reply to Re: Relapse risk is greater for rapid drug withdrawal » manic666, posted by Phillipa on May 30, 2010, at 19:18:41
how does anyone///you have wife, kids, morgage/work through anxierty an mini breakdowns//my kids just thought i was a cool dad an a bit off the wall//well a lot off the wall, behind the smile,thats how it is //you cry when alone an be over the top in company//you get hammered when out as fast as you can to relax as much as you can ,hence the crazy things im known for///every one goes home to bed i stay up all night carnt sleep//never go abroad on holiday ,never have //flying no problem ,fear of going nuts in strange place an embarsing me an my family//you work your life round what you can do//an bluff the rest//you live two lives the real sh*t one, an the one for others//dont show you probs to people its not theres its yours//an you wont get sympathy only disbelief//i have walked into car showrooms an picked up a ?25,000 subaru a felt nothing,in my real head //you raise your kids you do crazy off the wall thinks//you drive your car a speeds for a rush an dont care if you crash an die//on my own i may add//then all the little brakedowns in your brain turn to one f*ck*ng big one that you carnt hide //an you reolise you should have got more help years ago//only there wasnt any//suddenly you carnt hide behind the smile anymore an you family reolises there is something really wrong//an there powerless to help because you wont let them //you there dad an husband i look after them they dont look after me/// it gets worse not better after all the battles you have lost the big one//your in hospital an the world has changed forever//drugs ,theropy p docs questions//i have anger that this can control me//an i have anger at the sh*t help you get//i have anger at untrained staff an stupid questions an wrong meds//NOW take what relief you get an live it,dont moan when down fight it//the only peson that can help is yourself//do what you want to do //dont agree to things you dont want to do an live your own life without hurting the ones close//me an my grand kid adian are driveing 80miles to the seaside for fish an chips//some would say your are as mad as a frog //i would call it bonding with my grandkid //wacky grandad is a cool guy
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