Posted by hansi555 on May 15, 2010, at 12:58:12
In reply to Lou's response-phatahmoarghanna » hansi555, posted by Lou Pilder on May 15, 2010, at 11:42:27
The main reason why I started with an AD was due to TOTAL insomnia.
This was a result of stress: I was doing 3 peoples job at work, trying to sell the old house after buying a new one, new born baby that wouldnt sleep - all at the same time.
Eventually I got a feeling of dizziness so i was sent home, very confussed.
One month after I have stopped working I experienced a HUGE nightmare - the mother of all evil nightmares - I truly dreamed I died, so when I woke up I couldnt tell if it was this or the after world.
After this, the TOTAL insomnia hit me and even sleeping pills would only keep me asleep for 1-2 hours - everytime I lay down to sleep, my body thought I was going to die hence keeping me from sleeping would keep me alive. I also got some benzos, did not like the feeling after waking up on those - flet like a zombie.As the weeks went I also ate less and less. So after 6 weeks my regular doc said that we could try something called Remeron - way better than sleeping pills and not addictive - BTW it was also an AD, she told me. Well that sounded ok to me - much better than those "dangerous" sleeping pills + benzos. And I was not depressed as such, just down as the whole situation was life situation/career threatening.
Then after taking remeron for 2 weeks (I could sleep and did eat again) out of the blue came crying spells. I suddenly just cried. Hmmm.
At THAT time I was depressed. And I know that lack of appetite and insomnia can be symptoms of depression. But still it seemed kind of odd to me - and still does.As the crying spells and feeling sad became even worse, the doc (now a real psychiatrist) set me up to 45 mg remeron, then 60 mg. It worked for some weeks, then I was down down foe some weeks, it was really an on-off experience.
And then after 3 months he added Lexapro and cut down on the remeron. That did only little to improve things. After another 4 months Nortriplyline came along, now my main drug. The situation became more stable but not in the long run.
I still get sad and cry for no good reason, now it will normally only last a couple of days, then I have some very good days and some ok days.
To me the lows are something like mild to moderate depression, rest of the time is normal to mild dep.
So have I been helped by these meds or have they made it worse, prolonged the dep. or even made me addictive?
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