Posted by Economist on April 12, 2010, at 13:37:55
In reply to Re: Any med that made you gain interest in people? » Economist, posted by SLS on April 12, 2010, at 8:23:37
I spend my free time reading and re-reading archives from Psycho-babble and schizophrenia.com. I don't find it very enjoyable, but it holds my interest because there is some chance of discovering a medication that might help me be rid of the boredom/anhedonia. But I imagine that once I have tried every single useless medication and augmentation, and once I have finished reading all the archives, I will have to spend my free time lying down or sitting on a park bench enduring the boredom until evening comes, when I can just fall asleep and be at peace in unconsciousness for a brief 8 hours.
"I no longer want to do nothing, yet there is nothing that I want to do" -- yes, that describes my state very well. I imagine this is what purgatory must feel like. Extremely uncomfortable and joyless, half alive and half dead. I suppose this could be dysthymia. The diagnosis doesn't matter so much to me, only the treatment.
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