Posted by vic80 on April 8, 2010, at 13:33:55
Rx: Lexapro 20mg (upped from 15mg 3 weeks ago)
Mx: MDD, AnxietyI have been having a blurred vision past 2 weeks or so... I wonder if it came about as a lexapro side effect which was upped from 15 to 20 mg 3 weeks ago. I have been experiencing a sense of feeling disconnected .. I noticed this started 2 weeks ago... when I'd feel a little disoriented when I'd go from one light intensity to another.... this continued and for past 10 days I feel cut off from the world around... I though this could be derealization disorder... but over the days I have realized that this feeling intensifies in the evening and nights ... when I go out to walk my dogs in the nights - I feel like a snowy layer covering my vision - and the street lights/ vehicle lights seem to leave a sort of bright effect in my eyes....
I wonder if this derealization feeling has been brought about by my blurred vision... I dont feel unreal while being motionless in a room for a while. Its mainly in transit, while walking, or travelling.
This is really troubling me and making me feel distressed. My pdoc said the blurred vision could be a side effect but would go in a while.
I have been on Lexapro for 3 months now, (started at 10 mg.)Of late I feel like I am just moving from one day to another without feeling any change.... like its one long day... this too I somehow attribute to the feeling of being cut from the world around.... this has definitely exacerbated my depression.
Also I notice some sort of memory flashes that keep happening since my dose upping, and the spooky bit is that I feel (I'm definitely in my senses)like some other time and place everytime I am in a different light intensity from the previous one... which makes me have a feeling of deja vu and causes me anxiety.
In the morning I had a strong coffee with my lex and in 20 minutes while travelling into town in a cab I was having this sort of anxiety which was making me feel like I am in 2 places - at home and in the cab - the most freaky experience ever.... I wonder if I am just psyching myself into believing that I have depresonalization - I have developed this obsessive compulsive habit of always checking my feet while walking, hearing myself talk, imagining how I'd look from an observer's view from the ceiling, and all other DP related symptoms. The more I want to avoid thinking about it the more these thoughts/urges persist and causes anxiety....
Wonder this deja-vu feeling, memory flashes, feelings of unreality etc could be because of some neurological cause - some sort of auras - or is it just good ol depression/anxiety... (Have absolutely no history of any neurological problem and according to my pdoc, seizures, convulsions have an early onset.... I am 30)
My pdoc was considering changing me to venlafaxine but that happens only next week.... and with all the scary tales of withdrawl I am already dead-scared...
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