Posted by qbsbrown on March 31, 2010, at 20:08:09
In reply to Re: how often adhd wrongly diagnosed as bipolarity? ed » qbsbrown, posted by ed_uk2010 on March 31, 2010, at 17:52:00
> Brian,
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> Try not to fear the withdrawal. If you experience severe withdrawal symptoms, the taper must be too fast. You will need to go as slowly as you feel comfortable with.
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> First of all, forget about the taper. For now, concentrate on transferring from Xanax over to Valium, which may take a few weeks if you do it in stages. Once you are stable on Valium, you can then decide if/when you want to start reducing the dose.
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> During the withdrawal, do you think Provigil will help or make you feel overstimulated?Thanks Ed. Yes, the taper from 30mgs to 17mgs was beyond belief, and it was a SLOW taper. So there is obvious GREAT fear. Yes, I feel more comfortable with trileptal and lyrica on board, especially given that trileptal helped tapering 2 times before.
Last march, I had tapered valium 30mgs to 10mgs in 10 days, with NO effects. Then foolishly dropped the trileptal cold turkey, and i was left in a state of valium cold turkey, and raised to 30, and then had my brutal taper down to 17mgs.
I do think that provigil is for sure aggrivating me completely, naseaua and headaches, i used to think it was a miracle drug for me. Obviously with MS, my CNS is already messed up beyond belief. And with trileptal making me hypomanic in the morning, and making me drink tons of coffee, who needs provigil?
Psychotropic drugs used to work for me. i thought zyprexa, celexa, and provigil was a perfect combo, or there were always others that seemed like they were going to work. I've spent years searching for that perfect combo, or at least one that would let me function like a regular sheep/cow, i mean normal person. Well, now my brain HATES drugs and rejects them and wants nothing to do with them, and i've put myself through psychosis by the manner that I have come off of them.
Ed, do you really think i need to do my conversion in stages? I'm a dramatic guy who never follows the guidelines lol. I've been on xanax for 2 weeks. How much valium do you think i should ask the Dr for? 60mgs? I still seem to be having a bad physical reaction to the benzos right now. Could still be toxic. The first night of lyrica seemed to help ease some anxiety, especially the morning anxiety, when the interdose creeps in.
I'm thinking about this Ed. Grabbing some valium, lyrica, and trileptal, and heading to the moutains of california, where they have an organic farm that you can work on for 4-5 hours a day, in exchange for food and board. I can't think of a better way to clear my mind, get away from civilization, as this place has no electricity, and is 45 mins from the nearest paved road.
For years, it seems like my life has been trying to fit square pegs in round holes, and using psychotropic drugs to do so.
What I would give back a couple of years ago, when i returned from a detox in the middle east, and was no longer on drugs, and no longer wanted them, and was functioning fine, only to have racing thoughts after 5 days and thinking i was bipolar. who wouldn't have racing thoughts after a SERIOUS detox from stimulants, benzos, ambien etc.
Ed, this CAN NOT be my life. A battle against benzos. Are you serious? This would be my what, 6-7th withdrawal attempt, and supposed to be worse each time, and this past one could not have been worse. I had/have so much more potential to do other things in this world, than to seemingly battle this poisionous drug to me.
I've been getting serious naseaua and headaches, and it's tough to tell if it's a toxic reaction to xanax, or if it's provigil, or if it's trileptal etc. I'm just sick and psychotic, and just want it to end.
When i was healthy, there is a Zen center that i used to frequent often, and loved it. I've been too sick and crazy to attend for the past year.
Apparently, one of the new teachers, is in fact an integrative psychiatrist. So i've reached out to him about my story, and am eager to hear what he has to say.So i'm thinking lyrica, trileptal, valium, and head to the mountains and do some organic farming, what do you think? LOL.
Thanks!!!!
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