Posted by g_g_g_unit on March 19, 2010, at 21:21:42
In reply to Starting Pristiq, posted by conundrum on March 12, 2010, at 6:46:34
> I basically had to admit that I have an >obsessive personality which is different from >OCD. >For me it means that everything as far as >meds has >to be just right and that I can't trust >a doctor >to make the right choices. Its very >hard for me >to accept that you just trial drugs >randomly until >something works.
this is a concept i've been battling with tremendously in my journey to 'getting well'. i've been diagnosed with OCD, yet can relate wholeheartedly to everything in that link you posted regarding obsessive compulsive personality disorder.
i recognise that my fascination with meds is just another outgrowth of an obsessive condition, but i also feel like distrusting psychs is a natural response to a medical field that cares very little for patients' overall wellbeing (in my opinion).
for example, you complain about chronic anhedonia. i have a friend who was on an SSRI for four years, and now battles with concentration difficulties, etc. she said her solution was to simply 'get on with life', i.e. get a fulltime job. that's something i just can't stomach, which is why i repeatedly butt heads with psychs.
prozac, for example, destroys my sleep, leaving me essentially non-functional during the day. but emotionally i'm doing okay. my psych's suggestion? get a fulltime job to 'get your mind off things'.
sometimes i feel like my perfectionism is simply a measure taken to receive adequate treatment. it may be a futile endeavor, but at this point i'd rather die trying, i guess.
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