Posted by mellow on February 11, 2010, at 12:34:59
Do any of you guys (or gals) have a comfort med you run to perhaps irationally? I've been on a roller coaster with Risperdal for 5 years. I've been as high as 3 mgs and as low .5 mgs. In November I got back down to 1 mg with the logic that less med was better and I certainly can't touch my Lamictal or Celexa.
I find myself really wanting to start back at 2 mgs today. I feel like I'm trapped in a constant inner dialouge with myself (mostly negative) and I feel withdrawn and isolated. Some times I feel guilty for a certain thought and want it out of my head. When I start a higher dose of Risperdal I always sleep like a log and feel very relaxed for a few days. This is the only time I feel like I'm on auto pilot and not trapped in my skull. I function at a high level and I can talk to people without nerves, guilt or shame. But I know it only last a little while until I gain tolerance to the dose and I'm back to playing the med game.
My pdoc's secratary is trying to squeeze me in today and I will see him Monday for sure. I just feel wierd today. I've been struggling with headaches for 3 weeks now and they are starting to travel to my neck and face. Sorry to bitch I just wanted to see how some of you guys deal with you antipyschotics. I don't even no if this makes sense. I so blah today!
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