Posted by ihatedrugs on February 6, 2010, at 12:00:26
In reply to Going off meds?, posted by myfranz on February 1, 2010, at 7:50:22
I know exactly how you feel as I just went off meds about a month and a half ago. I'm still taking klonopin at night in case I get too anxious. I don't know how long this will last, as of the last few days I have begun to feel down again. I did pretty well during the first month. The reason I stopped was I was supposed to go through a washout period from Emsam but I was actually feeling pretty good, so I decided to continue on a -let's say extended washout. I have been on pretty much every antidepressant except for most maois (just emsam). I honestly believe that while these meds have perhaps, kept me functional, each year that goes by they have taken a piece of ME. I sometimes think back at the young woman I used to be- depression and all- and feel such inmense sadness for all that remains of me are vestiges of who I used to be.
I'm so tired and disillusioned at the medical/pharmaceutical establishment for giving us substandard meds that only seem to mask one problem and create numerous ones. I don't know what I will do. I am supposed to start lexapro with a small dose of nortriptyline but the thought of more weight gain (50lbs so far), loss of libido, lack of motivation, increased stupidity, brain zaps, memory loss, and all the other insidious offenders we have to put up with, have made me wait and hope for a miracle. After all, I think a miracle has a better success profile than any of the meds I have taken.
Will I have to go on meds again? I'm pretty sure I will. It is just a matter of time for the beast to show its ugly face again. The problem is what meds? I'm supposed to go back to Lexapro but I have already tried it. How many trials and errors do I need to go through and if they work it is only temporarily. This is why I'm taking my chances with no meds. I'm tired of thinking what else is there? I'm tired of going to this website looking for answers and hoping someone knows of a new drug showing great promise. I'm just tired and understand why you want to go off meds. I truly hope it works out for you. I'm not so sure it is going to work out for me either way so it will be just a matter of which of the two evils cause the least damage.
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