Posted by ColoradoSnowflake on November 28, 2009, at 22:47:39
Hi you guys:
I'm so sorry you're feeling so bad. Paralyzing FEAR FEAR FEAR has been my middle name most of my life. I would wake up in the middle of the night and obsess about everything so black and bad and such fear. If I turned on the light it was even worse....just had to lie there in abject fear and wait for real daylight to come and be a little better.
I have PTSD also. I have a lot of triggers from that and it immediately makes me cry and want to kill myself on the spot.This time of year is one massive unremitting trigger if you ask me.
But, the Parnate is working!!!!!
Thoughts of and plans for suicide has been a big deal for me...almost obsessive. I don't have those thoughts anymore!! Amazing!! Once in a while something will flit through my brain but it is very easy for me to flip it away.I am not a basket of tense anxiety and fear anymore. I am once again amazed. I am sometimes in a situation I think maybe I should have some fear but I don't. I rarely wake up in the night (amazing) and when I do I go to the bathroom and go right back to bed and immediately back to sleep.
This Parnate is a miracle for me. I am also very clear headed...maybe more than I want!
All I take is Parnate/Provigil/Nortriptyline. That's it! Sometimes I feel so "normal" it's really boring.
You guys probably remember it took me a while to work out the "kinks" on Parnate, but since I did it's been great. The diet and drug stuff is really really easy after the first month. I rarely think about it.I am a little worried now that I have had to go down to 60mg. I'm afraid I might get depressed again. I have small inner ears and trouble with virtigo. The little bit of hypotension I get from Parnate has made it worse. I just have to be more careful so I don't fall. I will NOT give up the Parnate!!
I detest this time of year. I think many of us do. I can't wait for it to be over, but I know I'm going to make it this year.
I was so afraid of Parnate that I put taking it off for years, and now I could kick myself...but
oh, well.
I think it would work for both of you. I think it's important to get the right augmentation with it.
I think maybe I don't have sleep issues because I started the nortriptyline first. Actually I started with amytriptyline first. It ended up making me too tired.
I have so much fatigue with my depression that I have to take Provigil. FB, you might do better on dexedrine since it works for you and Provigil doesn't. Bulldog, I can't remember how your daytime fatigue is. I think you can take some benzos with Parnate too. I have such an addictive personality I pretty much stay away from the benzos.I think you guys should just go for it. I've heard, and used to tell myself, Parnate ALWAYS works if you work with it. It looks like emsam is a waste of time and effort for us really TRD folks. Parnate has fewer side effects than any other AD I have ever taken, and thats a whole bunch.
I wish us ALL good luck in getting through this horrendous season coming up.
Hugs and kisses to you guys. I just hate how much you are suffering, having been there done that myself so much. People don't realize how much pain is involved in feeling like that. It's palpable.
xxooxx
Gayle
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