Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on November 27, 2009, at 23:25:57
Hey guys,
Something came up and I need to talk about. Is it...how could this happen, my doctor wanted to see me but my mother went into the session, and would not let him prescibe a medication that is vital. Yet he was going to do it, I'm thinking the moral's that are here. Because I have abused this medication in the past, yet looking that it is the most vital thing to surive, yet the hell I put this person though when I was abusing it....I look down on myself, and say "shame".
But still, I'm on my mother's insurance, but I have to say the reason that it was avoided, the doctor didnt have a problem prescibing it, it's my mother in the session just did not want to do it at the time, and I can agree with everything that I put her though in the past. Yet is this healthy, because she is the one that know's me and I have to build my trust in her, because I want to heal wounds that where done in the past. The stuff that I wrote about, there are some "control" issues, but I love this person. I'm 22 and I should be able to go into the session alone, but she knows "i'm going in because I help him". I mean what, i'm just venting. This person loves me dearly, but kinda has left and gone on. And still is there for "adversity" because there was abuse in the past. Yet the vary doctor that "took care" of me in rehab, said it's getting down to the point, Adderall XR.
He told my mother he want's a PET scan done because he want's to see the areas and sections of my brain that are lacking suffiency. And what medication would be needed, and if stimulants are not needed then, it's a no.
Feedback? and I don't want this to be like a big deal but I can't prevent this from happening because I simply cannot move out and get my own insurance because I can't "focus" and the medication that helped is...my mother is adverity to it but there will be some time she will make up her mind. The doctor...which is experienced in "addiction" and was my "rehab" doctor simply came down to the point "a stimulant is needed" but my mom just doesnt want to go though what happened in the past.
Don't let this be, she can go into the session if want's to, but I don't know how to say "no" because there will be "consequences" to that.
You know, there's a love that is done. I know that, I don't want to hurt this person anymore from saying resentful things, but at the same time I'm under control over my doctor's visit's. I don't want to hurt this person anymore, but I just have to find someway to say "ok, can we do this" and the anser is usally "no", and that's when it get's to a resentful thing because it's control, but this person loves me and I love her......
Blog Closed..
rj
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