Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on October 8, 2009, at 20:28:56
You know, I wish I could warn people of how much choices are important. Right now, i've never been so down, because I know the world is moving on..and i feel i've been left behind. 2005 if Could only get back to you, it's been a while, and I want to start over, the pain of life has ripped me apart, yet it's my choices. Alcohol help's none, it makes depression more than it is, and I don't want to ever feel this way again. I want to feel, what it's like to live life, back in the old times, and not have tear's come down from my eyes, yet people endure depression, this is more than depression, this is angony in a time warp. Only to warn people of what hell, may feel like this is it. And I encourage you to know that there is bad feelings, when you leave yourself to idleness. If I only knew how to fight depression, and gain the win, and not lose to idleness. I know that I will do better, next time, yet when is next time? isnt next time forever?
I feel like i'm in a picture staying the same, with tear's coming down, yet they are not seen. The picture will last for ever, yet it will find hope, and it will come to happyness. I regret every tear I've cried in weakness, I regret every statement I've said, it's all life and you have to endure it.
If anyone hear's, don't ever come into this darkness, because it is agony here. I must warn, never come to this point of life when you feel your not relevent, and your just sitting in life feeling idle.
I want to feel better, I want to see the light of life, I want to see life, not death, and danmation, and the pitt's of hell, in agony. If only people knew what this feeling is, they would dodge it, and get away. See the sun of life, and know that all of life will pass, it's how you interpret it. Make it postive.
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