Posted by zonked on August 26, 2009, at 2:30:20
In reply to Re: Effexor XR NIGHTMARE! » zonked, posted by SLS on August 24, 2009, at 15:32:07
Scott and all:
You are helping. The fact that I have this board may save me from going to the hospital tonight, which has almost always been a traumatic and FRUITLESS experience for me. I need to try to calm down and sleep... If anyone interested in what's going on with me would read this entire ramble (I'm sorry) it would help me, I think.
There are psycho-social factors involved. I have been staying with my mom, who has brain cancer, and she asked me to leave this morning due to my depression anxiety being so bad (I don't blame her--I literally could not stop pacing the floor and grimacing.) it was dragging her down.
I don't know what to do next. This is where I may need guidance-- I have a small sum of money I could spend to find a well known, expert psychopharmacologist, pay the consult fee, and be on my way to being fixed, but that would come at the expense of not having that money for other things. (So you know, it's my SSDI retro money--I cannot work in this state. I haven't been able to work since April of 08. I should be HAPPY that I finally have health coverage, but I am anhedonic and anxious.)
My psychiatrist is on vacation until mid September; the ER is not going to do anything or start me on a new med; and my GP is an idiot, so I am sort of scared of opening the phone book. If anyone can reccomend someone in the SF bay area (California), I would appreciate it. Or point me in the right direction. This time, it may save me to get someone who's as good as good gets, even if it costs me half my savings.
What would you (any of you) do if you were in this situation?
Medication wise, I am just freaked. I am so tired of this--I think since Parnate and Nardil worked well (there are reasons I can't take either) it would be sensible to try Marplan, or maybe Vivactil since it seems to work rather quickly in anecdotal reports (and a sort of super-psych-PDR I saw in a Dr.'s office once.)
I haven't taken any Effexor XR in over 48 hours, and given its short half life, I am just hoping that I do not WX. My state hasn't gotten better or worse, but I am not a happy camper. Sleep has been elusive. Really sad, but can't cry; scared, but of nothing in particular. Some of you will know what I'm talking about..
I am sitting in a motel room by myself with my laptop, remembering what life was like on Nardil or Parnate, and just hoping that I can find something and/or someone--soon--that can restore me to that level of functioning.
(Just for reference: Nardil quit working at 90mg [doc wouldn't go higher]; Parnate requires higher-than-PDR doses to work and made me manic [altho I wasn't on a mood stabilizer at the time.])
What am I taking tomorrow morning? Lamictal 200 and Klonopin TBD. That's where I'm at now.
And as sort of a last thing - SLS - I've read a lot of your posts, you really seem to know what you're talking about - are you in the field or just self educated?
Good night, all.. I will keep you all updated.
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