Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on July 16, 2009, at 16:03:39
In reply to Re: Recovery from breakdown couple weeks ago » rjlockhart04-08, posted by Phillipa on July 16, 2009, at 12:57:52
This is the first time, I had to get somewhere to get away, even if it's a lock down unit, get away from home. At least the people there, where friendly, and some of them where gifted in there own way's in humor, some in making jokes about life. It's not bad, i did it. The next time, i'm telling the doctor, if you cannot see what is going on, buying into a lie, of something that is not being seen at home. My doctor threw me away, so that's life. The other one before that, bought into the lie.
At least at a PsychWard they know what's going on, and not a lie. I can actually sit down with a doctor, and have someone to care for you, unstead of having a complete emotional/mental breakdown, start shaking, it changes the DNA features. You feel homesick, but.....actually home is making you sick. The reason i didnt get anywhere, is because of a mental breakdown. No one there, only the Holy Spirit to hold on to (that's more religious that's not discussed here).
I was given the Zyprexa, and i asked is this a modern day 'thorazine?'...she laughed, no, but it's going to calm you down. 20mg is alot. yet, in an emergency case like that, it shut down things back to normal, because when I was talking, my hair looked like it was fire, my eyes where red, in a sense of tramalike. Zyprexa calmed....it "put" me out, at 20mg, 24 hours (dyphoric feeling), it wasnt, it just "stablized" unstable nueron's back to normal until i could actually talk with a doctor.
Talked with some people, just in general, how are you? and, you know.....it was ok, and It benefited to a point, to where the mind, "didnt split". From antagonization, it's so many things, yet i don't blame, but it's the cirmcumstance of what is going on 360 degrees.
Ativan calmed.....it's not as "strong" as Xanax, yet, it calms "indirectly" than Xanax. Xanax calms emotions, and nueron's that are unstable, in the past, yet it only lasts 2 hours, and it depends on "when you take it", the XR kind, can impair you someday's. Geodon 20mg or 40? I don't know, but it stablized the fire that was going on. So Zyprexa 20mg, Ativan 2mg (every 6 hours), Geodon 20mg was the medication that "put" back the body, into one piece. And i thank the Unit doctor for understanding, for the care.
The diagnosis, I do not know. They recorded it. It was anxiety to the point, "firelike-anxiety" sweating, eyes are in terror, don't move.
That's it, finally I've told this, cannot hide it.
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