Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on July 13, 2009, at 23:59:42
Alot of times I realize, my posts don't catch on to other's, in the way the relate to others, and when i help people, they say "oh ok..." ignore the advice and chat with another babbler.
I did this w/Racer and Racer it's coming back on me, because your posts where long and to point, and at the time, the earthquake, the inattention, eventually you give it up to that help your giving to that person. You can't help them, what happen, i hit the floor, and got back, just by survival instinct.
You know do you ever feel you, severe, even through, you help people in their troubles, you feel normal, and inside, you feel below normal by the way people "say who you are", people do not tell me that, you tell them what they represent by pointing their finger, and what that finger represents. Don't want to go further, because Ive death with people who are not nice, cut off life, toxic, yuk.
When this happens, say in your circumstance, you apply it, that person has not benefited any for your life, and their negitive and are going to bring to you down, to lower of their level and treat you like a slave. Believe me, the beating i've endured, you can handle it. Just some people rather pay attention to the news, then a crisis that is happening causing dissociation, and say "who cares"?
The good part, is when this happens, you know the torchure someone will do, and you know how to deal with tramatic situations. All the other people are relaxing, i'm learning life and it's horror's.
Sometimes, I don't understand how I do cope, w/stuff, it's as the sub-cousious mind does the work, because the main coinscious had a breakdown. And the people who you knew, and said you where worth something, you have to let them go, and know that it was a lie then entire time. Don't trust man. What man say's or anything, it's not a Convenant from God,I write all these articles and It's multitudes of them, still at home Im put down, socked away, as nothing, just like i was in highschool, it's like an imprint "not valid", in the response to that, the mind evolves itself, into something more than Dynamic, it knowns all the horror's of the past, and it killed some sector's, still, hello, i'm alive! And it can happen to you, you can with stand something like this alone, it's called belief, and faith, not false guidance from a corrupt person who gives advice to you, so you co-dependent on them. It's you own system of info, to survive.
Just leaving a message, thanks for being here....the community. And also, know their are people who, will whisper into your ear "psssst" which posses your soal, and say something to alter, things. It's happened to, alot of things in life. So be aware.
Phillie, rerember postive comments, like in the past.
rj
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