Posted by bitkit on June 20, 2009, at 0:43:50
In reply to Re: Parnate and anger, posted by floatingbridge on June 17, 2009, at 12:33:34
HI Candace,
I think you're really on to something. My anger has a lot of legitimate causes. Since negative feelings usually just morph into self-hatred or general dread, I was having a hard time understanding this feeling. I mean to say, I've occassionally expressed outrage to a person but maybe a handful of times in my whole life... so to feel continuously enraged is so odd for me.
But indeed, I am furious at depression, at anxiety, at both my psych and probably (shh... don't tell her) my therapist, definitely my father, etc. etc. I feel so neglected, defective, hopeless and scared. I am even acting out in bulimia again, which arises when I need to stuff and release anxiety. But neither of my psychs will touch my 15 year long e.d. with a ten foot pole. Argh. The med guy was surprised Parnate didn't help with bingeing urges since I'd told him it reduced my appetite. Well, silly man, bingeing has nothing whatsoever to do with hunger! /rant
Thanks for listening. I posted an interesting link one comment up, I think. I'm going to reflect more on its contents. Dysthmia really hits home, though, I have to say.
> Hi,
>
> Thought while reading your post that anger might be result of justified dissapointment at drug not working that well and as a response to the protracted pain of dealing with an elusive, hard to diagnos illness. All perfectly reasonable reasons to feel anger, etc. (Consider this my two cents.)
>
> Bipolar spectrum is really interesting and a new way of looking at depression and mood disorders. Myself am diagnoed as BPIII NOS (not otherwise specified). For me, this made more sense than the years of *just* dysthymia and major depression as well.
>
> Good Luck!
>
> Candace
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