Posted by shasling on June 2, 2009, at 16:37:36
I just wanted to post this,when i post its very easy to appear to be a great person,which i am,i wish everyone on here success in remission.In general im truly a nice guy.
However again im behind a pc,and i feel its unfair to the close people around me to not post this,right now i am battling rage,and the worst part about it is the people who get the bad end are the people who stuck by me,when my rage is untreated im cruel,and mean,and very angry,a person very easy to hate,and i wanna take time out to share this with everyone,perhaps others have the same issue,but i feel like a two face posting as a sweet guy here and then other times being the biggest a-hole you wanna meet.
I have even been maced due to my uncontrollable rage,at its worst everyone is my enemy,family police everyone.I can only hope the people who stick through truly believe thats not the person i am.
Im a power lifter and stand 6`1 280 so as explianed to me its not a nice thing to be around.At those times i need numerous klonopin,gabpentin,xanax whatever like a horse people to make me drop,i wish i could have some form of barbituate at these times as i believe im wearing these people thin with my rage.
The only thing in my rages i always respond to are my two small dogs,they can make me calm all the time.
Dont know the reasoning for posting this,guess the two face feeling i felt earlier today got to me.
thanks for listening.
poster:shasling
thread:899065
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20090531/msgs/899065.html