Posted by johnj1 on May 1, 2009, at 17:28:18
In reply to Re: Nortryptline, thank you » johnj1, posted by bleauberry on May 1, 2009, at 17:11:45
Thank you for the suggestions, your are very kind.
I have tried luvox, even at low doses it wired me too much and paxil made me feel like I was in another universe, very scary. seroquel caused akathisa and I felt that way on paxil too. I am very med sensitive so I have to be careful. Benzo's depress me so there isn't much left. I tried NAC and it really helped, but gave me a headache so glutamate is involved for sure.
I can see that my way of thinking causes a lot of the problems. For example, I like women, like most men but when I notice a woman I initially am interested and admire them. But then I feel horrible guilt because I am married. Then I start to think horrible thoughts like it is rude to my wife, that maybe it means I don't love her enough, etc., and the anxiety mounts. Today, I looked at that and laughed because it is not true. I do that with SOOOO many things. I read way more into than what is really there. It is dumb, but seems real at times. My good friend said he does the same thing and even fantasize but it is just that, don't worry about it. But I do, and it sucks. Work I do the same, over think. So basically, I cause my own problems. I wish I knew how to stop it. I watched Dr. Steven Phillipson videos on OCD and was shocked. It is me!
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