Posted by rjlockheart on April 24, 2009, at 14:59:40
This, can't be a distress call anymore, but i'm writing this now, in full awareness, i'm being torchured, not "directly", locking things away, taking birthday cards, taking the money out of them, that where mailed. Locking this laptop, "bolted" into a closet, at night, there is nothing to do, expect read "scipture". That is the only thing, to really apply and have faith, to get out, and let, the anaynmous "parents" be taken care of.
Manipulated, i'm in my 20's, and a normal person would have been moved out by 18, the truth, i'm going to say this straight up. One of my parents, litterly "kept" me from knowing, normal things a parent should teach there kid/child..etc. In later teen years, more control, manipulation, through lying to doctor's, not letting me talk.
In these past 2 years, memories have been "split" but i'm aware of it, it's just hard to recall somethings.I'm not saying, i'm innocent, no! there where things that i did, walk out of the house, fight back with someone who screams the house, the neighboor's have "moved". I mean, this is dealing with someone, who had a bad past, but takes it out on me. What do you do? I know exactly, the comeback's "and your blaming me?", all the books out there, could not apply to this situation, this person, will "disable" life-support. Takes my presciption's, if i confrount, she will look and find something to blow up, "You blame me! look at all this?? buster". Don't know if it's right/but something inside, this is not/ more than abuse, caused mental death, walk in, wake up! i just laid there, picked up things, screamed, but my brain didnt "respond", it's like "blocking" virus. Even though, it's still active, reality just came to collapse, the only way, "think of a memory, a person, that loved, it sends endorphins, to the bad sector, amgalda, to give it "life" "subsitued love". Like CPR, only the mind, is trying to save it'self, because it has love inside.
Through this time, I have to make this quick, she will walk in, no telling what, i can't make any comment's back, if there even "civil", she stir's up gossip, and turns people, distort's the truth. The truth is evidence, and fact. Not "made-up" legends/lies, that seem relevent to the truth.
I want to share this: I read for the sake of reading, but i came across these scriptures, and alot more, it just is too much to put here. When i saw this, it applied directly, as a word to this situation. ____________________________________________
Ezekiel Chapter 3
3:8 Behold, I have made thy face strong against their faces, and thy forehead strong against their foreheads.
3:9 As an adamant harder than flint have I made thy forehead: fear them not, neither be dismayed at their looks, though they [be] a rebellious house.
3:10 Moreover he said unto me, Son of man, all my words that I shall speak unto thee receive in thine heart, and hear with thine ears.
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Ezekiel Chapter 11-12
11:2 Then said he unto me, Son of man, these [are] the men that devise mischief, and give wicked counsel in this city:12:2 Son of man, thou dwellest in the midst of a rebellious house, which have eyes to see, and see not; they have ears to hear, and hear not: for they [are] a rebellious house.
12:3 Therefore, thou son of man, prepare thee stuff for removing, and remove by day in their sight; and thou shalt remove from thy place to another place in their sight: it may be they will consider, though they [be] a rebellious house.
12:4 Then shalt thou bring forth thy stuff by day in their sight, as stuff for removing: and thou shalt go forth at even in their sight, as they that go forth into captivity.
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Jeremiah 7
7:19 Do they provoke me to anger? saith the LORD: [do they] not [provoke] themselves to the confusion of their own faces?Jeremiah 7:20 Therefore thus saith the Lord GOD; Behold, mine anger and my fury shall be poured out upon this place, upon man, and upon beast, and upon the trees of the field, and upon the fruit of the ground; and it shall burn, and shall not be quenched.
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Book of John 3
1:3 For I rejoiced greatly, when the brethren came and testified of the truth that is in thee, even as thou walkest in the truth.
_________________________________________The only way to know there is, faith to get out. Thank the Almighty for this word, through books, even though they apply to a parable, when i look at it, those sciptures almost "speak", (not hearing voices...ok?) it's as if there "highlighted", directly, because he's heard my cries, breakdowns, what is faith, when it has gone on for years?
"Patience and Endurace", in Revelation. Was "highlighted", not litterly, but as the Word was speaking, through revealance of scipture.
Just know, this has been happening for years, centuries, so this isnt a big deal, it's just "do it on your own". People don't want to hear, things, it's like having a cold, they don't want you near them. In this case, it's deep, and hidden. Personality Disorder, but I'm aware of the symptoms, and re-construction after this, will take place. You have to accept, what has been done. Can't stay in the past, it causes insanity.
Thank you, PB - all poster for 6 years.
;)takecare
rj
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