Posted by bleauberry on April 13, 2009, at 17:31:24
So, 6 weeks into Tetracycline for Lyme disease and I have progressively, but very gently, almost unseen from day to day, gotten worse and worse in terms of depression.
Ya know, the thought of being in a psyhiatric ward is scary and repulsive. I mean, you are locked in. You wear PJs. You are with seriously crazy people. There is scariness in the air. No way out. Few get well.
So, when someone is in such bad shape that the thought of the ward is acceptable, it is ok, well, that is real bad shape.
That is my best description of today.
Doxycylcine did the same thing. What is terrifying is that when I stop these antibiotics, I actually get even worse. They make me worse on them, and then yet even worse stopping. Geez. Gimme a break already. Lyme sucks. And so do the "cycline" antibiotics. For me anyway.
I'm sure any doc would scoff at my hunches, but I swear these cycline ABs have effects in the brain.
I did 5mg Parnate today hoping for that quick bounce. I didn't even feel it. A few weeks ago I did 5mg, it was strong, felt a bit worse for a couple days, and then by day 3 through 5 I felt probably 60% cured already. From one lousy half-dose. Sure hoping for that to repeat. Just need to buy some time.
My doc called me on Easter Sunday (cool doc!) and told me to stop. His instructions from the beginning were "If you get a lot worse, do not try to tough it out, stop the meds and call me". He said there is another variable going on that we need to get a grasp on. I see him next week, and then my pscyh NP the day after, so just need to try to hang tough until then. Today was hell at work. Heavy laden legs, huge frown, sunken eyes, distant, gloomy, almost shed tears a few times. Man, depression really sucks. Only the devil could have invented such an excruciating disease.
I like to come here and try to help people. I am not accustomed to being the one that needs the help. It's kind of scary when you don't know what's around the corner.
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