Posted by garnet71 on April 9, 2009, at 11:33:30
In reply to Re: SSRI's and acetylcholine, posted by Alexanderfromdenmark on April 8, 2009, at 17:10:28
Well, I decided to not be angry about it anymore and focus on moving forward. it did piss me off for a while that doctors kept prescribing me ssris for anxiety that made me feel miserable. I mean, when I told the last PDoc I couldn't function on them, he said "what do you want me to do?". Prior to that, my care was managed by a nurse, not sure if that had something to do with it, but i kept feeling worse on SSRIs, but no alternatives were ever brought up, except switching to another, so I'd quit taking them, eventualy get reoccurring anxiety attaacks, start on them again, merry go round. So really, a lot of misery from the past 3 years or so could have been avoided. It wasn't till I came here to this forum, that I saw all the alternatives and realized what was going on. yeah, cost me years of life quality, but I've gotten over it.
What does continue to bother me, only because it still effects my life in terms of my personal resources, is always having to be your own expert. It's so time consuming and a waste of mental energy. I remember this happening at a very young age, well when I was stiill a teenager, and was screwed out of school financial aid I was entitled to because the financial aid guy at the school did not know his job. Cost me $10,000, which took me 10 plus years to pay back. I realized this only 2 years later, and tried to recoup it, but there really was no legal remedey I could see, but I couldn't afford an attorney anyway. At the time, I argued with the guy, stating I think he was wrong-but he swore he knew for sure. There was no itnernet back then to search, and I guess being so young and inexperienced, I didn't pursue it further.
I mean, just the other day medical assistance lady told me my VA educational benefits count as income. WEll, I had already checked state regs, and knew it did not. I told her this. she argued with me. wEll, she calls me back and says you're right, it doesn't count as income. Everything is back and forth with her. I still can't get medical assistance, but I think their might be a way, and as soon as I have more time, I'm going to try to figure it out.
So that's the only thing that still bothers me. It's time consuming to read regulations and do all the legwork yourself when their are people paid to do a job. Like psychiatrists.
So, I wonder how many people are screwed because an expert doesn't know their job. I understand no one is perfect and I make employment mistakes as well, but as you can see-costing a person $10,000, especailly when I argued about it on several occaisons-I rmember this distinctly--is an example that led me to always researching everything I have to do. I mean, if someone doesn't bring up the possibility, that's one thing, but when the client or whoever brings something to your attention, woudln't you check into it? I honestly am sick of it. I never knew I had to do it for psychiatric care until recently.
So that's a non-answer answer i guess. lol
I think anxiety for me is 50% genetic, 50% enviornmental-childhood issues, lifestyle, chronic stress reaction. I always think someday I will be able to manage it w/o meds. I have been med free for as much as 6 months at a time since it started, and had long stretches where I had no anxiety.
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