Posted by Jeroen on January 31, 2009, at 15:59:08
things are not well, in fact i feel hopeless
i feel like i have brain damage, psychosis, depression,
many have given up in my situation i think
so, im at the hospital, getting poison drugs that makes me worsemy sex life is not ok either, something is wrong, i dont enjoy it anymore since a month now
also when i talk with someone on the phone i get paranoid toughts, and i cant focus good anymore
im on abilify 10 mg and Ativan for sleep and anxiety
i think high dose seroquel upped by 25 mg each day can save my life upto 800 mg for 2 monthsi dont want this to happen in the hospital because, i get heart attack alike side effect and pannick attach each time i take over 225 mg of seroquel, but i NEED A HIGH DOSE, its the only way i can get better
now there's this Zotepine i want to try, but i have all reasons to be affraid because i get psychotic on my favorite Med Zyprexa, this psychosis is causing too much dopamine release in my brain, the instant i go witouth abilify i get psychotic wich i take to survive of course
but in other words, things are Bad, just Bad .. if i want to survive psychosis i need Seroquel 25 mg upped until 800 mg, but there are serious side effects i dont want to face it every night.. my psychosis can get SEVERE by trying this i tryed 200 mg of Seroquel and when i lied down i got a BRAIN ZAPS and insomnia, its pure EVIl and NIGHTMARE what is happening to me, i didnt expect this to happen, i must have done something wrong in my previous life....
this message is ment for people to all of us in dark times!
poster:Jeroen
thread:877392
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20090104/msgs/877392.html