Posted by sam K on January 17, 2009, at 12:59:58
In reply to Periods of sadness for no apparent reasons?????, posted by qbsbrown on January 17, 2009, at 11:53:45
jesus man Ive seriously thought Ive been the only one that gets derealization from lights. Flouresent lights really mess/messed with me. Ever since I did lsd a long long time ago Ive been having this noticiably. It makes it dreamlike. Still does. I also get afterimages alot.
If I take antipsychotics i get messed up. Anything it seems with dopamine is really bad. But who knows. Anti convulsants seem to give me derealization.
And also I do also have an underlying sadness. I feel it in my eyes. Pressure. Like a dam keeping back water. I was hypnotized once and I just let all of that and talked about my dad and how I feel like he doesnt love me. After that hypnotism I felt soooo differnt than Ive ever felt in my entire life. It was like something happend to my body. An intense hangover feeling, gone beyond drained that lasted a while. I know it doesnt seem pleasant but I think it was good for me.
Its like my soul is sad. And I remember my doctor that was hypnotising me said "a sadness you will carry around with you, a compassion for others sad" something like that.
I have derealization everyday. But back when I was 14 I was diagnosed with Hppd because I had done the lsd... Which also triggered all the problems I have now. depression, anxiety.
Ill post some more later cya! get better
poster:sam K
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