Posted by crittercuddler on December 20, 2008, at 17:35:14
I have severe depression with persistent suicidal thoughts, along with very bad OCD. (Please see my first few posts under "SSRI insomnia, restlessness" farther back on Medication board page for more info on my current condition.)
Risperdal was just prescribed for me and it is the only medication I am taking. I have taken four doses of .25mg Risperidone (generic of Risperdal) and I am feeling so strange and I am very frightened by this.
I don't feel like myself at all. Things feel kind of surreal. I am not keeping up with time well. It is very difficult for me to think. The ease at which I can usually compose an email or forum post has just evaporated. It is like my brain is in slow motion. Usually the words just flow and now I am having to spend a lot of time working at composing something. Doing anything intellectual feels difficult. My memory is being affected. Last night I was trying to do research on the computer and I had to keep reading the same stuff over and over again and I still couldn't remember what I just read. This morning I was trying to read the newspaper and I had to keep going over paragraphs again and again because when the story would mention someone's name I had to go back and verify again who it was they were talking about because I was having such a hard time remembering. I feel subdued in this really weird way. I am so uncomfortable with this sensation and it is really hard for me to endure because it has provoked my obsessions related to my mental abilities.
I know people will say that I am not really experiencing these difficulties and that it must just be my OCD, all "in my head" and stemming from my fear of medications. I need to clarify though that I FELT these sensations, THEN I started worrying about them.- Not vice a versa. So, it can't be that.
I am so worried that they will never go away if I keep taking this medicine. But at the same time I don't want to quit the medicine prematurely because that is what I always do and it has kept me in the awful place where I am so sick for the last three years.
Has anyone else experienced these difficulties on Risperdal? If so, what dose did you take and did they go away?
poster:crittercuddler
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